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Wow. This thing is so old, yet it reminds me of a book with pages that smell like old.
Daniel and I are no longer together.
I've gained 15 lbs since the break up but I hope to change that immediately. I'm a new person - you watch out.
More later. Wow. This thing feels so good.
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[15 Sep 2008|01:08pm] |
I have decided to post things that only I can see them.
Goodbye.
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[09 Apr 2008|01:41pm] |
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I know
its right
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[26 Nov 2007|11:21pm] |
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DIG ME UP FROM UNDER WHAT IScovering
The better
part of me.
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[15 Feb 2006|02:44pm] |
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As most of you know, my journal is basically friends only.
If you want to read my journal, I have no problem with that. I write in here for me, and for your advice/feedback whatever. So, don't be afraid to add me.
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[08 Feb 2006|02:47pm] |
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PLEASE COME TO THE ROBERT M. BEREN ACADEMY PRODUCTION OF...
MURDER IN THE HOUSE OF HORRORS
Starring the wonderful drama club!
FEBRUARY 25TH AT 8PM AT THE JCC
ANDDDDDD FEBRUARY 26TH AT 12PM
PLEASE CONTACT ME TO PURCHASE A TICKET FOR EITHER SHOWING FOR $5. IT IS $7 AT THE DOOR, SO HURRY UP TIME IS RUNNING OUT!
I am assistant director, so you should come for me even if you don't know anyone else in the play!
I'll be looking forward to hearing from you!
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| A random thought ...? |
[21 Aug 2005|11:36pm] |
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So I decided to read Eichah in depth again tonight since on Tisha B'Av I didn't have so much time.
I wonder what it was like when Eichah 5:2 was read in Gush Katif.
"Nachalaseinu nehefichah l'zarim, bateinu l'nachrim."
"Our inheretance has been turned over to strangers; our houses to foreigners."
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[28 Jul 2005|01:16am] |
Comment and I'll add you...
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| CAUTION: RANT AHEAD |
[24 Jul 2005|01:06pm] |
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Trust n.: Firm relianceon the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing
Love n.: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness
What is the relationship between love and trust? Or is there one at all? Can you love someone that you cannot trust? I was watching a movie a couple nights ago and the quote came up – “When love is for the highest bidder, there is no trust. Without trust, there is no love.” As defined above the two seem to have nothing to do with each other. But logically speaking, why would you want to love someone who you couldn’t trust? I guess we must take into consideration that there are different kinds of love. We have: platonic love, romantic love, friend type love (which is different than platonic because I say so, so nyah), obsessive love, the sweaty kind (haha you get it), and I’m sure this list could go on and on. The point still comes back to trust. Could you be friends with someone you don’t trust? That one I do have an answer for: no - if you can’t trust someone then it a paradox to be friends with them. Can you love someone that you aren’t friends with? I suppose you can, that’s why we have obsessive love as a category (some people like to call it stalking *cough cough*). Are there different types of trust as well? I mean there is a difference between trusting someone with a CD or something and trusting someone to not break your heart. Does this topic have way too many grey areas to have an answer? YES.
Haha, wow I don't think I've spent that much time thinking about stuff and actually writing it down in a while.
*BACK TO AMY'S WORLD*
more later...its been a crazy summer so far but its only going to get crazier cuz rachels back and we are going to partay it up. :D so excited
Damnit, I still need my camera back.
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[18 Jul 2005|10:58pm] |
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[15 Jul 2005|11:22am] |
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Heyyy so I am in CT...yes yes around the corner from RICKY ULLMAN'S house. But he lives in La Jolla now so it doesn't matter. Anyway I refer to him by his real name which is Raviv. Anyway Ill probably hang out with his brother or something while I'm here. So yesterday, my flight was delayed 3 hours! It was hell but I'm here. I cannot wait until Sunday, visiting day at camp! I get to see some people I've been missing a lot lately. I'll hope to take some pictures and post them sometime soon. Lifeguarding has gone well...today is payday but I am not there ahh and I'm not going to have much money to spend shopping in NY next week. Haha, oh well. It's so nice seeing more people with Livejournals. When I got this my intention was to keep all my private stuff away from people but it's cool now, cuz I've changed. I hate this damn keyboard so I'm going to stop for now. I'll update as soon as i can. Also, Rina...those are for MYSPACE. Haha, check out mine while youre at it! miss yall..
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| Dedicated to... |
[06 Jul 2005|09:37am] |
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mars volta - roulette dares |
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slowly we walked
down a withered and twisted path
the whole time, you were weaving a web
a web of destruction, a web of deceit
we come to a fork in the road
the time to go separate paths has come
now im caught in your web
and i gradually begin to die
with that warped grin on your face
insisting that it was not your web
insisting that you couldnt possibly weave
you claim you want to free me
but now im tangled
but now i die
By my friend, Carl McNew. I miss him!
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[05 Jul 2005|12:30am] |
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I'm having one of those nights. One of those nights where you can't sleep because you can't stop thinking about something. Yeah, well...I was trying to fall asleep and I thought about this one particular night at Moshes. I know what you are thinking but be a little more mature about this. I dunno, I just remember everything he said, I said..and just everything was basically perfect (yuck, I said that???). It made me tear up...almost cry. I just really miss the times I had with him. Him in general. And now ...its just over. I am over it, don't get me wrong. Anyone who knows me well definitely knows that. So no one say "oh amy get the hell over him already". I'm just having one of those moments, ya know?
A lot of other things have been going on. I don't really know what turns to take anymore in life. It scares me so much. Even the little things scare me. Yeah yeah Amy the scaredy cat. Anyway..next time you guys go to Galveston IM COMING WITH YOU (you know who you are >_<). I took Laura shopping today in my carrrr which was fun. Work tomorrow..oh joy!
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[27 Jun 2005|12:55am] |
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Peanut butter and jelly sandwitches are amazing at 1AM especially if you haven't eaten since 10AM. MMM. Yummyness.
:D I'm so happy. I think?
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[21 Jun 2005|11:22pm] |
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So I might as well update this thing.
Today was my first day lifeguarding at the J. It was not as bad as I thought it would be. I had a few breaks which was nice. Its so quiet sometimes when only a few swimmers are in the pool. Utter peacefulness. Hmm. I saw my really good friend (since preschool) shara for the first time in close to a year. She warned me last summer not to be a lifeguard b/c her mom has/had skin cancer. Oh well, what can I do about it? I also saw jeff! Ahh I wish I was working with him as a counselor. He is fun to be around sometimes. Right so. Tomorrow I have to work and then I'm off to a wedding. Well, come visit me if you want and go for a swim! It is so hot outside but I'm getting a pretty nice tan so far. :P
-end of nonimportant things-
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I know it has been a long time.
Theres a lot that has been going on. I think?
I'm working at the J on Tuesday and Wednesday from 10:45-5:30. Come visit me!! I'm a lifeguard biznatch.. sorry for not making that clear the first time I posted this.
More later.
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So yeah. Theres some pictures for you. Blah blah blah, I want to go to Warped Tour soo badly, but I can't. Oh well. :P
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[07 Jun 2005|06:29pm] |
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So Rachel is here and we are studying for our LAST FINAL. Just some more pictures from us to you.
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[06 Jun 2005|10:01pm] |
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Look at the most wonderful bday present ever..
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I'm losing myself once again. Help...
Drugs are bad. Okay.
Mmm..gonna be fun, haha right.
Alcohol is bad. Fine.
Does it look like I care? Umm...no.
Ohhhh my friend's band is playing at numbers sometime soon but I totally forgot when. 2 more finals.
My mom isn't coming home.
I might have to not work and stay w/ people here who I don't like b/c all of my closest friends are leaving.
I need to scream.
I wish things were like they were before...damnit I know I know stop thinking about the past. LET ME OUT OF HERE!
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[02 Jun 2005|11:49pm] |
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Love is a very odd thing... it's something every person searches for and wants... whether they do it purposely, or without notice. It's an instinct. Just as your body and mind tell you that you need food, water, etc. It instictively searches for love, whether you want it or not. Many people seem to fear love... some may just say that it's a fear of commitment, which can be the case. However, that fear might be there, but the root of the fear is the factor that if you get to close to someone... you begin to fall in love, if you haven't already... there's a chance that it will not last, and your heart will be broken.
Ripped out, split in two, however you want to say it, it hurts like hell and no person wants that. Yet it comes with the territory. Just as you cannot have good without evil, it seems you cannot have love without pain. Unless you are one of the few lucky one's that find your true love, the one you can spend the rest of your life with, chances are you will be hurt. The degree of pain depends upon how close you are with the person.. the closer, the more it hurts, and the harder it is to move on.
Just a view on love...
Back to reality...
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| I look at you and smile because I'm fine... |
[31 May 2005|11:32pm] |
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Adina's goal for me for the summer is to meet 2 hot guys (preferably lifeguards) and have fun with them. HAHAHA, that is one of the last things I want right now. She wasn't joking, which was a bit scary. I'll find a guy and tell him to wait for her to get back from camp.
I am patiently waiting to get my car...
I want my grandmother to get better.
How can people be so fucking blind sometimes? It really annoys me. Whatever...
You've changed...look at yourself, you've changed...
Off to sleepy land with monkeys and carebears... :P I'm a little out of it.
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